Jan 27 2012

What is wrong with me? Please Help!

by: Ruel De Guzman

It feels like I have forgotten something very important in my life. I feel like something is missing…something is lacking. For the past months, my work has served as my daily routine. I wake up, go to work, go home…wake up, and go to work, go home…such cycle keeps on repeating every day except for Tuesdays. I thought that when I finally have work and begin helping my family in my own little ways, I would be satisfied and fulfilled. I thought when I got the chance to spend my money the way I want to, I would be satisfied. I accomplished that…but never satisfaction. It really feels like something important is missing and as of this time, I hate the feeling I have, trying to figure out what could that be.

Love might be the sole word to describe it, but from whom? From my parents? Maybe. I was never close to either my father or my mother. From my siblings? Maybe. I was never close to them either. I practically began living on my own by the time I learned to put on my own clothes. From my friends? Maybe. I have lots of friends, I just don’t know if they are real. I am close to them…that’s what I think. I don’t know about their thoughts though. From a girlfriend perhaps? Maybe. I’ve been through a lot in terms of love for the past year and I don’t think that I would still love to go back to that feeling of loving and being loved. I just don’t know what to think. I find my life now very boring and with every day that passes by, I slowly begin to think that there is no need to continue anymore. I just don’t know who I am and what I want. It seems like on an identity crisis and I can’t figure out a way to solve such.


Sep 29 2009

My Chinese Mestiza Manang Easther

A writer talks sweetly about her sister.

my-chinese-mestiza-manang-eastherFor miles around, I believed, there wasn’t a finer sister than my eldest sister, Manang Easther. She was made of a different stuff and was everything we three younger girls were not everything we ever wanted to be. I was proud of my Manang Easther, and my greatest frustration was that I could never be quite like her.

She was special in every way, but I thought the most special thing about her- the one thing that I secretly coveted most- was her creamy, almost flawless skin. The slightest insect bite had the most devastating effect on us younger girls. We were plagued with skin rashes and allergies which festered, leaving their ugly, telltale trademark stamped on our arms and legs. It was nothing unusual; really, every other kid we know suffered the same fate. But not Manang Easther. She always managed to escape unscathed from the hordes of fleas and mosquitoes that accompanied our childhood. Or, if she did get bitten, it didn’t show.

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Jul 28 2009

Born of Simple Graph an article from a student writer from PSU

By:David Rabelas of Pangasinan State University

Once you become a student writer you will have the chance to voice what you feel, your thought or idea. One of the problems I have encountered in making my column is the title. Then the words “Simple Graph” came to my mind.

Simple means easy, not complex, and easy to understand, while graph means the diagram stating the relationship between the two variables.

Simple graphs mean stating a relation or comparison of the topic being discussed in my column.

…of reality

Many opinions, many justifications but only one thing is true, “the world of reality”.

Being a writer of CAST Chronicle serves as my avenue to explore the world, the real happening inside the university. A lot of excursion will be explored not in place but in the place of reality. Will as student like me or like you make a difference? As I remember clearly, Dr. Jose Rizal said, “Ang kabataan ang pag-asa ng bayan” but will this statement be remembered by us youth? When the mere fact that we don’t know how to deal with the world of dark reality that there’s something wrong going on.

Our college dean said in her column, “that the cooperation with entire student populates and administrations while create a good atmosphere towards the success of the university”. But how can we cooperate to the administration if they don’t know how to cooperate also? We are just only students, a student who is a learner from his environment.

…of hullabaloo

Every department of Pangasinan State University has its own department t-shirt. The Mathematics, Computer Science and ICT has their department t-shirt. What’s the issue? Nothing, I just aim for 5 but they give me 3.

Many don’t understand the meaning of simple statement, may be you will think this way: “The student of the said department doesn’t know how to aim higher.” Or may be this way: “Student doesn’t deserve the grade of 1” but what is the real meaning of “I aim for 5, but they give 3.”

According to the president of Math Circle Club Mr. Faulo Ramos said: These mean that you will be aiming for something worst once you experience the tough of being a student in the field of Technology and Mathematics. This is just normal, but once you overcome all of these getting a grade of 3 or higher than that will do.

Another thought is if you aim for nothing isn’t it is much receiving for the fruit of your hard work, rather than aim for higher will you get failed it is disappointing, and maybe next time around you will not be wake up to face the challenge again.

It’s better to think positive rather than thinking negative. Come to think of it did the President let his constituent down? But then I respect the opinion of each who posts their sentiment about the issue.